Have you ever had an itch inside your heart and you can't quite get to it?
and that you kinda want to scream and put your foot down and throw a b.f. (those who watched white chicks will know) well.. not exactly a b.f. but to yell and make your point?
that's how i felt every single time i realize i've been compromising.
I find myself cringing inside whenever people uses God's name in vain or when they curse. it feels like a little needle just pokes at my heart.. not really painful, but just downright uncomfortable. I've corrected my friends before but it seems just like a very hard habit to shake. actually sometimes it feels like theres no other phase that can fully express some feelings as clearly as an "OMG" does.
but something about using God's name in vain hurts me. and lately i haven't been correcting people around me.. perhaps it was because swear words (along with using God's name) is so commonly used in my office that it's like normal everyday english that you can look up in webster. most of the timd you'll find us in the middle of insulting each other and telling politically incorrect jokes. everybody is insensitized to it to the point that it's just soo hilarious... the conversation sometimes go along the lines of this..
coworker in response to my recent hair dye malfunction: "Jesus Christ! your hair looks so red you look like a $1 hooker."
me: "yea....."
sometimes it doesn't sound wrong.. Hell, we got over the line of being offensive after the first week of work.. and now it's just sad (for me at least)- when swear words are so skillfully incorporated into the everyday language that it doesn't sound rude or ignorant, rather charming and pure hilarious.
but i KNOW for a fact that when we keep ignoring these little inklings that Holy Spirit has placed into our hearts to remind us what's right and wrong, they WILL go away and it's hard to get them back.
of course, i cannot justify myself saying "oh my gosh" because it's equally bad.. and i admit i do have my slips with swearing.. but i decided i'll put my foot down anyway and hope that they will overlook how hyprocritical i am and still respect my wishes.
Monday, July 11, 2005
completely random thoughts/rantings. thought you might be interested.
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4 Comments:
"b.f."... hmm... what's that? Big Fit? Hehe, I'm good aren't I? If I am correct :P
"overlook how hyprocritical i am" Awww Queens, you're not hyprocritical... Yes, I too am guilty of typing and sometimes even saying the letters which is kinda jokes of "OMG"... Sammi told me not to do that one time and I stopped ;)
"Jesus Christ! your hair looks so red you look like a $1 hooker."
Hmm... I would be more concerned about the ladder... the $1 hooker thing in particular... So you dyed your hair eh? "On screen, on screen, let's see it..." -Picard Yes... I'm curious... wanna see if you look like a $1 hooker, just kidding! More like $1 Million Hooker ;) Haha, that's why I can't get a girl, like the saying goes "No money, no love..." :P
Very easy to judge others but very hard to admit our flaws, when all of us are doing the same thing. I believe we are all hypocritical in some ways. Our eyes look outwards. Of course we don't see ourselves and our own actions. We tend to pay more attention to wat other ppl are doing (oh psyc class). We'll try our best ok, mah chinese homie!
Trust me. At least you weren't called to look like a gum yu lo.
Hey... Mike... are you Mike Lau? Or another one...? "[Kay toes]"? Haha, I figured out what that means! :P
Anyhow, there's something funny I must say about the OMG! Haha, if you say OMG to me, I'll be like "You may call me Kevin" :P Hahahaha! Is that what your boss does when you say it to him? :P I saw that on Bruce Almighty which we watched for our church's fellowship retreat, jokes...
Maybe "you may call Him Jesus" would be more pratical. ;) Anyhow, I hate it when people misuse God's name in vain too... but understand why it hurts you, it's because they are hurting someone whom you love dearly and that's a good thing. :) Unfortunately Satan always makes my own mother misuse God's name and I often have to talk to my spiritually adopted mother Vanessa to complain/vent about it. Why? Because even with my mom, I discovered arguing against it will only make her do it more :(
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