Give me one pure and holy passion.

haha i've been getting the "you're not fat!!" comment alot after i posted this blog.

guys. really. i just couldn't come up with another title. that's all. no i don' t have self esteem issues. no.
and i don't think i'm obese or anything. i happen to like my body. (well.. itd be greeat if i can trim those thighs a lil.... )

but come on now, it caught YOUR attention, didn't it?

har har har har.


i still can't believe i'm bloggin again. it's been so long. and i remember the reason why i decided to stop blogging before. you see, having a blog is as if you're opening up your whole life for other ppl to see. and it doesn't really matter if they're just being nosy or they really care how you're doing. depending how much you write in your blog, your life is like an open book. exposed to the World Wide Web, for the eyes of those you know. and don't know. it's pretty vulnerable isn't it? i wonder why people do it. i wonder why I do it?!

perhaps i'm just craving for some attention. .. har har har.


last night i had a walk with fran by the lake. it was nice to get some fresh air, even tho it was frickety cold. we had a chance to lie there on the cold hard ground to talk about what's going on with our spiritual lives and other things. Fran has been such a blessing, God knows i desperately need a Christian companion by my side these days. it's weird to find someone that you don't often talk to but always have the same thoughts as you. And it's also weird to find out things that you don't notice on the outside.

i wonder how much other people are hiding about their lives. what kind of thoughts they can't let anyone else knows. what kind of scars that's preventing them to come forward. i have qoite a few myself. but i really want to live an open life. i want to be broken. i want to share about my struggles and admit that im the worst of all sinners. being free from fear of what other people would think of me. afterall, Jesus didn't hide anything about His life.

i guess this blog would be my first step.


i'm still struggling, no doubt. but i'm working on it.

posted by Queenie @ 7:51 AM